today I want to write things about repentance. I have written post about it but the intention to write more about it is increase lately.
I watch Nouman Ali Khan about move on after commiting sins. It talks about prophet Musa ‘alaihissalam.
the story of prophet Musa, when he committed sin and at that time he hasn’t become a prophet. Al Quran surat al Qashash ayat 15;17
“And he entered the city at a time when its people were not watching: and he found there two men fighting,- one of his own religion, and the other, of his foes. Now the man of his own religion appealed to him against his foe, and Musa struck him with his fist and made an end of him. He said: “This is a work of Evil (Satan): for he is an enemy that manifestly misleads!”
He prayed: “O my Lord! I have indeed wronged my soul! Do Thou then forgive me!” So (Allah) forgave him: for He is the Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.
He said: “O my Lord! For that Thou hast bestowed Thy Grace on me,”
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He killed and egyptian and then sincerely ask forgiveness to Allah. And Allah directly forgive him after he sincerely confess and ask forgiveness to him.
Well, now I am going to write some of NAK words from the video. This is what I got from NAK:
Tow to know that you are forgiven?
That is not the question, the question is that:
was my seeking of apology to Allah is sincere enough? Because if it is since you are going to be forgiven
Propeht Musa says:
“Master because of the favor you do to me, I’ll back for being a criminal again ”
(The English translation of Quran I use is slightly different with the translation of NAK use, I mean the wordings)
Now what favour that prophet Musa talk about? It is the favour that Allah has forgiven him. Then how to know that Allah has forgive you? If you are a sincere believer, you dont need to wait for the revelation to make you know that you are forgiven. You just know it, as the matter of fact.
then you have to face the people around, dealing with the consequences? yes, sure. But you have the forgiveness of Allah with you that makes dealing with the people easy.”
in the video of Yassir Qadhi I found that by doing repentance is that an inevitable because we human sin every day. Satan try to deceive us and says that “No way, you are hopeless, Allah wont accept your repentance” and we continue to commit the same sins. It is insulting to Allah. Why? Because first, this mean two things: you are doubting that Allah have mercy that are unlimited. Secondly, it shows the sign of desperate where we know that only the disbeliever that are desperate to Allah’s mercy.
Then how we commit sins and it was happen again and again? Like a addictive sins. When we in our conscious that that is wrong but then our weaknesses made we slip off and the we committed sins. Then we feel afraid you Allah and we made taubat because we believe that Allah is Arrahim. Is that the sign of iman or is it hypocrisy?
Yassir Qadhi respond it in two ways:
as being a true believer we shall believe all the name and the atribute of Allah. That Allah is Arrahman. A true believer when committing sins, he feels very guilty in the back of his mind and says “O Allah, I have committed sin. I know you are Arrahman, please forgive me. that that is the sign of Iman. Submission and feeling guilty is the sign of iman.
“O. Allah is Rahman, Allah is Ghafur. he is going to forgive me anyway. huh.” This is not the submission that is wrong. This is the arrogance that is wrong. If in your psychogy is the confident and arrogance. This is the sign of hypocrisy.
In another lecture, I forget that is it NAK or Yassir Qadhy, the sign of iman has sipped to your heart is that you see a betterment in your self and the people around you. Because iman is contagious. It spread to others human hearts.
Back to the how to be a good person after repentence.
I got an amazing solution by Tariq Ramadan. “Do concentrate on what good you can do, not to what bad you can be.”
here is the prescription. Do the good that we can do. Because we are going no where if we are concentrating on what bad we can be or what where are not good in, right?
And how to stay humble and not boasting after doing good things? I presume there is kind of afraid to be praised by human. And it is sometime make us reluctand to ‘commit’ another good deeds. There is the answer of nouman ali khan “Never judge your self as what people judge you. Don’t see your self that good when people judge you good. Allah know you best” Wait, then I shall perceive my self bad as what sins I have commited in the past? Nope. Nouman Ali Khan also have the second prescripsion “Never let the judge of people make you agree that you are hopeless and cannot be better, because Allah never close the door to those who want to back to him.”
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Thanks for reading guys 😀