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Kadang ada yang mempost dengan biasa. Dengan baju biasa dan latar biasa.

Ada yang mempost, dengan terpaksa. Memaksakan diri agar tampak bahagia dan punya. Terlalu sering melihat dunia dengan “make up”nya, kadang bisa membuat mati rasa. Terlalu sering melihat ke atas akan membuat leher pegal dan mata kelilipan.

Sederhana itu kadang dibutuhkan untuk ditampilkan, agar tertampar mata mata yang selama ini haus akan keglamouran.

Bogor, december 14 2019

Fighting desires (shopping addict)

“Owh that cupboard will be awesome for storing clothes.” “That utensil will be facinating to store my stationaries.” Hmm.. that big shining toy car is perfect for my son.”

Notification from online store “super discount for baby needs” or “super low price for furniture” or simple other appealing promo. And other advertisment or promo celebrating the idea of shopping and shopping..

Sounds familiar?

I have been there. It ends up pilling up goods in my house and many of them are not used or stored in a storage room or somewhere else.

I have repented to that materialsm, at least up to this moment. I come to conclution to question my self who sometime follow my whimps and desire of having more and more. You know, emak emak needs. Not fancy stuff though,im not into jewellery person anyway, but to stuff that ‘seems’ useful for house hold chores.

Here are my reasons to stop..

I read KonMari inspirated book, an Indonesian author wrote that. There I learn that piles of unused stuff which consume a lot of space the house will affect our feeling and mind. Less but useful and functional stuff will help us to feel tranquality inside. There I also learn to fight against the urge to buy other stuff that is not necessary. It is not only to save space and money it will also bring peace inside me. As I will live in a neater spacious rooms in my house. Not to mention, it will also save the earth as I go to my second point.

Lately I read instastory from my friend @wepukuma, there is a call to save earth by bringing refilled bottle when you go out, avoind using plastic bag, buy less new things. Yes, less new things means helping to save earth as well. Since it means less used things or less garbage so you will save earth.

Then now I understand the statement of my husband when I plea him to buy things “Nu, dont you think you can use that as a subtitute? Do you think you really need to buy that stuff ?” As a debater I can find hundreds of justification of why I should buy one. But now I realize I shouldnt create one that is based on what is “IN” today or simply becouse I see someones important in instagram using that stuff.

And for the toys of toddler, I listen to Elly Risman in Net TV at youtube, one of toddlers best toys are those which they create with their parents. Like making shoes box and rope into a car together. That the best one rather than ‘simply’ buying big shining expensive toy car.

Nurul Huda, noctrunal writer this time

Depok 2:1:2019

Kembali menulis di blog

Alhamdulillah sekarang sudah jadi Ibu dari 2 orang calon pemimpin masa depan, insyaAllah.

It has been a while im not writing. Busy about posting things on other social media. Tonight I just made a mile stone. Reducing account I follow in my instagram into 100+ only. It brings more calm in my busy head as someone who love to analyze things. Finally.

Anyway, I followed MBTI test again. The result is I’m an INTP, tadaaaa.. finally I am become an introvert person. wkwkwk.. My friend Milda told me that that is common to change into other type as time goes by since in chapter of life we face different people, different situation, challenge and opportunity.

I tell you guys one thing, next March I am going to be 29, now I am listening to a kocakres song a song I listen in my college life about 7 years ago back then in 2011. I am old enough now, I have been graduated from high school 9 years ago. Sometime I cannot realize that I have been a mom of two, my age is 28, I live with a man I admired and no longer live in Padang.

. . .

In this December, a tsunami Hit region in Selat Sunda, death smells closer this time. I often think about my death. About my debt to Allah I haven’t paid a.k.a fasting. What will happen if I enter the other realm that I cannot get back to this world anymore. I aint wanna pretending to be pious or what, but the fact that I have been bored, overwhelmed, with errands for sometimes lead me thinking “death could be better” answered by Quran which makes me stunned. The next day  after thinking of death could be better, I read Al Quran. I found that after death there is a border I cannot trespass and what I will go to is the judgement day. The only thing the dead ask to God is to return to this world to do good deeds. Man!! RETURN and DO GOOD deeds. That what they want. Suddenly I am stunned and evaluate my thought that I have prepare hard and do hard for my afterlife life. I have to do extra miles in this dunia for not being regret after being buried 6 feet beneath the ground.

In 2019 InsyaAllah I will be equipped with awesome detailed life planning book. My brother Irsyad shows me a link to order that book. For an thinker like me, book is necessary. Cannot be replaced with any apps on gadget.

Anyway, thanks for reading guys. Where ever you are. 😀

 

Nurul Huda

Depok 29:12:2018

Menyapih Amal

Kejam menyapih Amal. Mendengar raungan kesedihannya yang menyayat nurani. Disapih saat umurnyab19 bulan kurang 7 hari. Sesegukannya yang sungguh membuat iba hati.

Namun lebih kejam lagi jika kususukan. Ini tentang hidup mati adiknya yang sedang ada di rahimku kini. Maka aku harus berteguh hati untuk ini.

Nurul Huda

Depok 11.35 am

Jum’at, 20 04 2018

Contemplate

It takes huge reason to do a very difficult thing in your life. And I chose  the reason is heaven ☺

Nurul with her betterment. it starts from what within my mind and m when I win the war inside, I’ll do something good as I never imagine I could overcome. insyaAllah.

Anyway, I am just realized that my type of MBTI test is ENTP 😁

Ramadan 1438  is about to come

I don’t want to be the best, but I want to be better. I got the that from Norman Ali Khan video. The meaning of Ahsanu in “Man Ahsanu ‘amala” in surah Al Mulk is “better”

We will be “torturing” ourselves f by thinking that “I have to be the best me”. And when we fail to be one, it will end up with ” Okay, I can never be good”. Anyway,  sometimes our standard of good is dictated by people around us. Which we will never be able to satisfy every individual. It will only lead us thinking that we are nothing. And live our life in nothingness. As long as we make sure that we do not take somebody else rights, will be OK.

Well, actually those two paragraphs above are inspired by Naked videos.

Yap, Ramadan is about to come. I know I am not perfect and have so many flow. Yet, I know Allah’s mercy is abundant. I don’t need to be the best, because by being the best means no more improvement and surely there will be massive regret and reluctant to do good again if I fail once. I dont need to do something as people standard. I will make my own. Bismillah.. 
Balikpapan 26th of May 2017

Me time

Hi, it’s been around 8 months I haven’t written anything here. Hehehe, I’m sorry. Well, now I have become a mother of a baby boy 🙂

Talking being a mom, it’s somethow difficult to explain. Some says that being a full-time mom is easy. Really? Let break the responsibility for chores. Being a mom means you have responsibility to take care of at least 3 people: your baby, your husband and your self. 

Sometimes, for me, I forgot to do one thing, is to have a me time for my self. You know what? Me time for me is not hanging out to a coffee shop and sit for hours, but it can be sitting with books and drink coffee of fresh water. It can also by drawing things. Others are drawing or setting planning for next months or years. It is relaxing and help my brain to have some muscle 🙂

Seeing or observing pictures in Instagram or reading status in Facebook is sometimes borring. I mean, sometime I need to write in place which is more private, like a blog. Only those who have intention to read will read 🙂

Well, thanks for reading 🙂

ibrah hari ini: bersyukur

Saya : “Waduh.. Bentar lagi umurku 27, kalau hitungan Qamariyah, 27 Sya’ban besok umurku 28. Aaaaa.. Bentar lagi 30 berarti. Aku makin tua..”

Suami: “Mustinya kamu bersyukur. Umur 27 sudah menikah. Dan sudah punya anak pula 1 orang”

Saya : “Iya, benar juga ya..”

Percakapan hari ini yang mengajar kan saya untuk bersyukur atas apa yang Allah beri.
#bersyukur #suami #istri

Menulis, mungkin itu yang harus ku lakukan

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Well, pagi ini bangun dengan ayat “kullu nafsin dzaikatul maut” berulang ulang di kepala. “Setiap yang bernyawa akan merasakan mati”. Honestly speaking, sopntak hal itu membuat saya beristigfar. Ini kali pertamanya saya bangun dengan keadaan seperti itu.

Kemudian, tercenung.. Mulai memikirkan apa yang hendak saya lakukan selanjutnya. Alhamdulillah, lagi ramadan makanya tahajuddnya intentsitasnya jauh di atas bulan-bulan lalu , maka saya putuskan untuk tahajjud. hehehe #salahfokus

Selesai mengucapkan istigfar dan kemudian meminta beberapa permintaan pada Allah, saya duduk merenung. Sebuah mimpi dalam beberapa tahun ini kembali mencuat: Membuat brand fashion muslimah yang nanti buka outlet sampai UK.

Atas dasar bahwa bakat akan dipertanggung jawabkan di akhirat, saya mulai khawatir dengan kondisi saya saat ini. Well, kondisi saya bukanlah kondisi menggenaskan atau depresi, no no no. Kondisi sekarang sedang menjalani rutinitas sebagai ibu rumah tangga yang lagi hamil 7 bulan. Suami memberi kemerdekaan seluas-luasnya untuk melakukan atau tidak melakukan pekerjaan yang saya senangi. Tidak ada paksaan. #ciee

Terbuai dengan liberty yang diberi, alih-alih melakukan banyak hal, saya berakhir duduk di depan TV nonton national geographic, jammie super food atau sesekali melihat tayang life channel Makkah. Not productive at all. Sedang produktifitas seseorang itu dilihat dari jumlah karya persatuan masa hidupnya.

Pagi-pagi setelah curhat tentang bisnis dengan salah satu kakak senior di kampus owner SheDia Chips saya dapat message fb dari penulis “Kamu itu subhanallah”.  Beliau mengirimkan file lagu “Kamu itu subhanallah”. Saya adalah 1 dari 10 orang indonesia  yang dapat lagu itu sebelum lagu itu dirilis. ” siang ini akan di lauching di islamictunes malaysia” Ujar Nova Eka Putri di dalam message fbnya kepada saya.

Ck ck ck, senior dan junior yang membuat iri. Ini bukan tentang kemampuan mandiri secara materi semata bro, ini tentang semangat dan kesungguhan mereka dalam berbuat dan berkarya. Berkaca dari perjuangan mereka, saya jadi sungguh sangat malu. Menghabiskan waktu untuk sesuatu yang tidak begitu penting dan menjadi semacam “coach potato” pada waktu-waktu tertentu, sungguh memubazirkan usia.

Aaaaa…

Dan saatnya memutukan untuk apa yang akan saya lakukan selanjutnya. Berdagang atau menulis?

Sejauh ini jawabannya menulis. Sedang menunggu balasan whatsapp dari murabbi di Padang.

Nurul Huda

30:6:2016
Balikpapan

Cerita lucu setelah menikah (part 1)

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Setelah menikah, ada banyak hal yang terjadi.  Salah satunya adalah miskomunikasi.  Hal ini tidak serta merta berujung pertikaian namun bisa berujung di ruang klinik dokter. Hehehe…

Suatu hari sekitar 2 bulan setelah menikah, saya mendengar suami  berkata “Wow, cepatnya air gallon habis..” ujarnya ketika melihat air gallon yang cepat habis.  Saya adalah seorang peminum, peminum air putih. I drink a lot lah pokoknya. Mendengar perkataan suami, saya menjadi segan tidak dan berkata dalam hati “Aduh, aku minum terlalu banyak ya?”

Beberapa hari berlalu, dengan saya yang tentunya menyedikitkan minum air putih. Suami tidak tahu, disamping beliau memang minum sedikit, tidak sebanyak saya. Hari berganti hari, tenggorokan saya terasa sakit. Awalnya saya kira amandel, setelah dilihat di cermin, ternyata beda. Ada benjolan-benjolan kecil pucat disertai pembuluh darah di tenggorokan yang memerah. Perih!

Suami cemas. Kemudian kami ke dokter. Kata dokter saya terkena radang tenggorokan dan disarankan untuk banyak mengkonsumsi air putih dan tidak jajan sembarangan. Setelah beberapa  minggu kemudian, barulah saya sadar kenapa saya sakit. Karena sedikit minum air.

Ketika menceritakan hal ini suami saya kaget “Jadi kamu sedikit minum air karena saya bilang itu waktu itu?” “Iya” jawabku nyengir. “Saya segan, Aniki” tambahku. “Hahaha” suami saya tertawa lalu menjelaskan bahwa saat itu dia cuma memberitahu fakta air gallon cepat habis tanpa ada niat melarang saya minum air putih  banyak-banyak.

Nah, itu dia masalahnya, kadang saya susah membedakan mana yang serius, mana becanda, mana hal yang biasa dan wajar-wajar. Hahaha, maka saran untuk para istri, yang baru menikah yang orangnya mungkin terkadang agak lugu, bertanyalah. Malu menkonfirmasi sesuatu bisa mengakibatkan kamu berakhir di ruang prakter dokter.

Wkwkwk

 

Nurul Huda
3:6:2016
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